I’m too used to twitter.

I’m sorry for making you feel annoyed. Sorry for wasting all of your time. Sorry for believing we were really a family. Sorry for dragging you guys into this. Sorry for making you feel like you’ve wasted time. Sorry because you could’ve used your time for something better. Sorry for trusting you too much. Sorry because I created that group. Sorry for being a moron. Sorry for being stupid. Sorry because I believed you guys loved that so called family as well. Sorry because I invited you to that group; I guess it was useless, such a drag. Sorry because you met me. I had fun though, twaffles is a memory I would never ever forget. Thank you for all your time. Thank you for being with me even just for a while. Thank you for making me laugh, for making me happy. I loved you guys :)

A trip to Olongapo

We went to Olongapo last May 3^rd. I was mad and happy – mad because I wanted to be at home by myself without anyone else to tell me what to do while my family go to the beach and enjoy their visit; happy because the bus ride is around 3 to 5 hours, depending on traffic. I have always loved riding public buses mainly because I can think of just about anything when we’re I’m in moving vehicles.

Woken up by my dad’s loud voice at 5am, we all waited for each family member to finish taking baths. By 6:30 am, we were already outside the house. We rode a taxi to get to the bus station in Cubao. My dad bought tickets and past 8am we were already inside the bus. While waiting for the other passengers to take their seats, I took a few selcas, which I might share if I feel like it.

We arrived at lunch time. When we did, there was no electricity. I thought it’d be forever but thankfully, it isn’t. We ate fish and rice. A few minutes of sitting and wondering what to do, I started going around the house where we were to stay in. The house was my aunt’s and though it wasn’t that big, I did like it.

Took more selcas with my sister and a few pictures of the mountains near the house. I loved the sight. I love it when I get to see trees and grass. There are not a lot of those where I live, probably because I live in the city. I do wish there were more though. I absolutely enjoy just looking at trees.

I think it was around two in the afternoon when we decided to head to the beach. The jeepney ride was fun and scary. Fun because, as I said a few paragraphs before, I enjoy riding public vehicles. Scary because we were going around mountains, like, what if we fell? The thought is just too scary.

We rented a cottage. We placed our food and other stuff wherever. I walked on the sand, it felt good. Haha. I wore shorts and tried to walk to the waters but I really didn’t feel like swimming so I just walked back to cottage. I ate and took pictures until around five or six pm. I never really did enjoy beaches and such.

In the evening, we bought barbecues outside. Those were pretty much the best I’ve tasted. I want to go back there and just eat lots of barbecues! My cousin, by the way, is apparently a K-Pop fan, or, well, maybe just a fan of SNSD. She played their songs out loud. Best thing that has ever happened that day. I danced to Genie and Gee and Into the New World and Hoot! I loved dancing to those songs.

Around 7pm when my other cousin decided to turn on the playstation. My dad and siblings played with him. 9 in the evening when I started to feel sleepy because I didn’t have that much sleep the day before. We didn’t sleep though. Why? First, the house wasn’t big enough for us to have our own bed. Second, it was kind of awkward. Awkward because I wasn’t close to my cousins and sleeping means having to use their bed! I stayed up until 3am watching movies and anime and bunch of other cartoons. I woke up two hours later. I didn’t know I fell asleep!

I prepared to leave. I had to be at the bus station before six. I waited for my dad and sister to get ready as well since they said they’d accompany me. I didn’t like it because I was looking forward to going home alone. I guess it wasn’t that bad though since my dad bought lots of food for us. If I was alone, I’d be like “What is food? Nobody needs food. I need to save.” Dad loves eating so I like it when he’s with me.

Less than 3 hours and we were already in Quezon City. That was pretty amazing, considering we spent around 4-5 hours in the bus the day before. My dad and sister got off the bus first, and I went to Megamall by myself, a fan gathering was to be held there that day. Pretty much the reason why I had to leave Olongapo so early in the morning, usually I’d wait until evening because travelling in the evening felt better than in mornings or afternoons. 

I had an I-never-want-to-go-back-there feeling the entire trip. I had a few laughs and such but I really never liked going on vacations as I enjoy sitting inside my room, tweeting and doing a bunch of other things more. Vacations are never for me, unless of course it’s a trip to Japan or South Korea. *winks*

A few things about the blogger

                My name is Bessie though I’ve used the name ‘Aya’ multiple times on the internet. I was born on the 17^th of June, 1996. I have always lived in the Philippines though I have dreams of staying in Japan in the future. I am currently taking up BS Computer Engineering in college but I’m kind of giving up on Mathematics.

I don’t think have a great life though I’m trying to make it better than how I think it is. I am a pessimist who becomes an optimist when someone else gets involved in the situation. Most of the time, I don't get myself. Most of the time, I'm confused. I try to live a happy life but sometimes things don't go well and I start to think too much.  I’m very observant.

I am an anime and manga fan. I do love K-Pop as well. I love listening to Japanese songs, no matter the genre. I feel like Japanese songs heal me. I also play video games, though rarely nowadays. I do read books. Greek mythology, dinosaurs, and the outer space are some other things I’m interested in. I absolutely like car rides. I love looking at the surroundings. I cook food whenever I feel like it. Fried rice is my favorite thing to cook.

Summer classes

            I suck at math. I know.

Last 7^th of April, I started retaking my math 005 class – Solid Mensuration to be exact. Why? Well, I failed, of course. It is the worst thing that happened in my life so far. Anyway, my professor is a lady, probably in middle 20’s or so. She likes wearing dresses and always carries a water tumbler. I thought she was someone I could learn a lot from, turns out I was wrong. She’s the ‘I didn’t prepare for this but I’m going to teach it anyway’ kind of professor. Never ever a good thing, to be quite honest. For the past three weeks, we’ve only been taught a few and I’ve failed two quizzes as the questions were questions from another dimension. I seriously don’t know where they get those questions. The only good things about her are that she is a lady and she seems to be a good person. Other than that, I think she needs to teach us thing. I am thankful to her but I really want to learn more things. 

Aside from the professor though, I've met a few nice people. We've been talking at times, though not a lot but I like them. Also, there is this girl in front of me who likes EXO, not quite sure if she's into K-Pop but I'm pretty sure she likes EXO. Her shirts are EXO-related and her I.D. lace's design is Sehun related. Pretty exciting, I want to be able to talk to her though I don't think that would happen as she kind of looks scary. Hehe~ Pretty, but a bit scary. Or maybe that's just me. Hehe~

Tomorrow is our midterm exam and I haven’t studied. I don’t do that. lol. I’ll probably read a few things and go with the flow. Hopefully, I’d pass. Hopefully.

Jaa~

February 2nd, 2014 – A day that will never be forgotten.

A late blog post. Happened on the 2nd of February, 2014.
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Dream Kpop Fantasy Concert 2

          I woke up pretty late that day. My body actually knows when weekdays and weekends. As it was a Sunday, my body felt the need to sleep more, and I also slept a bit late the day before.

          I was to meet my unnirs at 10 but I left my house at quarter to 9. I walked to the train station; took about 15 minutes and around 10 to buy tickets and wait for the train. I, fortunately, had a seat inside. I was late. I thought “my unnirs are definitely going to kill me.” I met Melody unni by 10:30am then waited for Zarah unni for a bit. We bought food and then went outside. We headed for the gates of the coliseum. It was around 11am when we arrived there. There were already a lot of people. Most of them wore blue; “ELFs”. We stood by the gates for around 10 minutes until the guard told us there still won’t be any line. We went to sit near the gates and by 12 noon, we bought food for ourselves. It was time to eat lunch. It was so hard to eat. That time, it really was. But I had to eat. I can’t survive without food. I can’t say no to food. I think I forgot to say Clara unni, Melody unnir’s relative, arrived a bit before we ate. She was an ELF! Not quite sure what happened the next few minutes, I can only remember us, sitting in front of the gates, waiting for a line to happen. While there, another friend of my unnirs arrived; her name was Gennel. She has a very cute name I tell you. I tried to talk to her on twitter but I don’t know, maybe she didn’t see my tweet so she didn’t reply. I thought it would be really hard for me to talk to her. We bought light sticks and other merch after. I became tired of waiting for the line, but I couldn’t just mutter it all out, I silently complained. I brought a book, but it became rather useless as we had to stay alert because the people may get in line any minute. We needed to be ready for running and standing.    The guards said they’d have a line by 5pm, and that time, it was just 2pm. I hated everything that time.

          Past 2:30, people started running, shouting, and getting in line. I panicked to be quite honest. We ran to go to the end of the line but the line was too long. I didn’t even get to reach the end. Well, I didn’t like long lines and neither did Gennel so what we did was complain about the line and went to the beginning of the line. We talked to the ELFs there. We stayed in front of the gates and kept on telling each other to ‘just stay in front of the line’. The line really was just too long. We called the others and wow, we were first in line! :) It was past 3 or maybe a bit before 4 when the guards let us in. We, in line, sat, ate, and talked all those times. During those times, a lady, probably a head of the group, started shouting, well, for the place to be organized. As a sensitive person, I seriously didn’t like her at first. I was scared of her. But then, the place really got organized so I can’t complain. My unnirs said that this one was definitely better than their experience during K-pop Republic. We ate the food we brought as the guards told us it wasn’t allowed inside. Passing food like we knew each other well, it was a really great feeling to be quite honest. It felt like we were part of big family. Meeting all those bunch of people, it meant a lot to me. It’s not every day I get to meet my non-biological family, and it really isn’t every day that I get to talk to them.

          By 5:30pm, we got up and waited in line again. It got hard to breathe. It was hot and the place was closed and I’ve been feeling tired since morning. I was close to fainting that time. And I also badly needed to go to the bathroom. lol.

          It was a bit after 6 that they started getting and scanning our tickets. I thought to myself ‘it’s going to be okay now. I can sit and rest already.’ I was totally wrong. Just as we were to the door, the guards stopped us. It was past 6 and the show was to start 7pm. People were shouting already. We already wanted to go in. Most were already annoyed. And it was hot as well. We were also standing. Past 7pm and we still haven’t gotten inside. Our feet were already hurting a lot. They finally let us in by 7:30pm. There were lots of pushing and running. I was pushed to the door and I couldn’t move. That was so annoying I just wanted to go home and take a bath and sleep. I was like, “I didn’t pay to get hurt.” It really wasn’t nice especially that I was close to fainting due to the heat and exhaustion but I couldn’t complain. All of us were already so tired.

          We got in a few minutes past 7:30. We got the front seats yay! The view was nice though very far away from the stage. People started vacating most of the seats in the general admission and we saw people from the VIP going in already.

          By past 7:45pm, the event started. Various artists performed. I didn’t really know them so I couldn’t say anything but my unni said that they were from K-pop Star Hunt. I just wanted to see my baes lol just kidding.  

          By this point, the artists won’t be in the order of performance because I can’t remember stuff. I can’t even remember my own name. Just kidding but I seriously have forgotten the order. I’m sorry, but BTOB performed first and the last two were B.A.P and SJ-M. 

          The crowd started screaming when BtoB came out. They started with WOW. ‘This is seriously it.’ I cannot remember anything from back then. All I knew was I went all crazy and started waving my light stick in a violent manner. It broke after a few more performances to be very honest. When BtoB performed 2^nd Confession, I came close to crying. I kept telling my unni that I was going to cry but well, a tear fell but not really cry cry, I guess. So for AJAX, boy, I really wanted to go to the stage and kiss freaking Seungyeob!  Was he there? I will never know. Last time I checked there were more members than the number who attended the event. I think they were missing one member that time. I wanted them to perform Hot Game because that song was my freaking jam. Loved that song so much, and also Seungyeob. Sadly, they didn’t perform it. It was released in 2012 and it was already 2014. I was sad. I still am, actually. Oh dear, that Seungyeob stare. I’m gonna cry. Haha! Enough with the Seungyeob fangirling, let’s continue. A Prince was there as well. I really didn’t know them and neither did anyone near me. I love their songs though! And they do look like princes. You should search for them. Winkeu winkeu. The crowd got screamed so loud when they performed “Nasa’yo na ang lahat” and “Otso-otso”. I think those songs are popular here in the Philippines but I will never be too sure. They were so adorable. Can I hug them? Please? No? Okay. Block B? *Scott Pilgrim’s voice* I can barely remember. Just kidding! I wasn’t as knowledgeable about them either. I really am not a fan of boy groups. Why did I even go to this freaking concert? I don’t know. Very Good was the only song I knew. I still enjoyed though! Did I mention my unni kept on crying? Hahahaha. B.A.P. went next then. I went all crazy. IT WAS FREAKING B TO THE FREAKIN A.P!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The exclamation marks were needed. All I wanted to do was cry because B.A.P and no I’m not even a Baby. I just… liked them, that’s all. Haha. Now here’s the part where I went crazy and kept crying and recording their performance: BADMAN performance! To be quite honest, this was the only reason I went there. I was all “I want to see them perform Badman!!” because the first time I saw the video of their performance on YouTube, jaw drop. I kept repeating it until 3 in the morning. I wanted to see them perform that very song and I wanted to see them live. That was also the reason why I bought a B.A.P light stick. I kept on crying and I really can’t remember what happened back then. All I can remember is me singing to Badman. Man that was one of the greatest moments of my life. I love you B.A.P! Last one was Super Junior M. I totally forgot to listen to their songs. I know Super Junior’s songs but not M’s. I like them though. My bias wasn’t there. I cried. Where was he? I don’t know. Oppa Oppa was my favorite performance though. I went all crazy because jdkasdhasjkd DONGHAE! Who doesn’t love Donghae? I don’t know. They didn’t end it with an encore and that was totally sad. We waited for a while more when SJ-M left because Siwon! Huhuhu. My precious bias, where did you go????

          I enjoyed every moment of the concert to be very honest. I wasn’t a fan of boy groups but this was a really great experience. Everything was worth it. Next time, though, when SNSD and/or SISTAR come, I’ll definitely get the VIP seats or anything near, just not the standing. I want to see them up close and not like ants or so. I don’t want to make this any longer as this has reached the fourth page in Microsoft Word, with 11 as its font size and courier new.

          Jaa ne~