A letter to the partners in crime err fangirling.

A letter to my adorbs unnirs. A letter to the fangirls who I love being with. A letter to the people who drag me into pretty much every single fandom they're in, yep.

To my unnirs~  
          Hello hello hello~ heh~
          You might be wondering why I typed this as a single message so I'll state the reason. It's because I'm afraid I might just say the same things to both of you, just with different words. I actually see you as partners-in-crimefangirling so please bare with me. Heh~ 
          Unnies, thank you thank you so much for all the time you've given me. Thank you for all the time you've spent with me. Thank you for letting me get to know you. Thank you because you're always there for me, might it be about fangirling, which we do most of the time, or just me being a drama queen lol Thank you because, even if I'm overly annoying, you never ignored me and my inner fangirl. Thank you because you never left. Thank you for just about everything you've done for me. 
          I'm so sorry for not being a very great dongsaeng. I'm very random but at the same time socially awkward so there are times I couldn't respond correctly to you. Sorry if I can't keep up with you and your way of fangirling when we're together. Sorry because I'm the quiet type of fan. Sorry if I have done other things that I am not aware of but might have had you upset. I promise to go to DKFC2, though. Unless of course SNSD's freaking coming I need to see my gurls. lol
          One day, I'd definitely know everyone from BToB, BAP, and all of the other Kgroups which name starts with 'B' loljk.
          I wanted to make this longer but I guess I couldn't right now. I'm fangirling okay, I mean, I'm listening to Dongwoo's rap in Destiny. Heh~ You don't know how much I love that guy omg. 
          Unnies, thank you for everything. Happy Merry Christmas! God bless! Take care~ May you have a greater fangirl year in 2014. I love you both to the moon and back. :*
-Besh ♥

It's quite a loss that Melody unnir won't be able to see this this Christmas /cries.  
I would have also sent this to your house if I knew your address but then I don't so lol I'm also lazy so yea.
There are so many things to but the words couldn't come out right now. I'd definitely tell you through another message tho. :)
I wuv you guys mwa mwa

A message to the person who means a lot to me.

A message to the person who I'm very thankful I got the chance to meet. A message to the person who I want to personally meet. A message to the person I admire.

Hi Airlea nee-chan!

          How do I start this? lol.
          Nee-chan! How have you been? I'm so sorry I don't reply to your messages faster TT____TT I don't open my facebook that much anymore. I only check the notifications and such. Most people are complaining about my posts so I partially left. Hahaha.
          Nee-chan~ I just want to tell you that I am very happy to have met you. The first time I added you on facebook, you already saw my dramatic side but, even still, you never left. I am very thankful for that. I truly am. If I could just show you how thankful I am for meeting you, I definitely would.
          Thank you so much for everything you've done for me. Thank you for all the effort and time you've given to me. Thank you because your words of encouragement help me through painful times. Thank you because you're you, nee-chan. You might go and say that you've actually done not quite a lot but for me, who's always sad and upset, your words mean quite a lot. All the things you've done for me will never be forgotten.
          Sorry, too, nee-chan, if I ever made you sad or upset. Sorry if I don't talk to you as much as I did before. Sorry because it seems like I only talk to you when I'm in need. Sorry because it feels like I'm the only one who benefits here. I wish I could also know what things made you happy and made you sad so I could be there for you every single time. I'll always be here for you nee-chan, no matter what happens. 
          Airlea nee-chan, I am really glad to have met you. I am thankful that God made us meet even if just online. I do wish to meet you personally though, heh~ I just want to hug you tight and tell you how much I thank you and how much I love you. 
          Thank you so much for being part of my 2013 nee-chan. I hope you have a greater year this coming 2014! Merry Christmas. God bless you and your family. Take care always, ne? :) I love you nee-chan. Mwa mwa :* 

-Besh ♥

I would've sent this as a hand-written letter but I don't know your address so lol I'm too lazy this Christmas vacation too so. He he~ ♥ 

A letter to a certain dongsaeng.

A message to the girl who I will never ever forget. A dongsaeng who is always in my mind. A person who I will always love.

Hi Sarah~

          How have you been? We don't talk a lot anymore. I kinda miss those random conversations with you! Hahaha. Did you know it's been more than two awesome years since we met online? It's just so...wow! Hahaha. Our long distance friendship is truly awesome don't you think? :)
          Anyway, thank you so much for just about everything! Thank you for always being there for me. Thank you for the things you've done for me. Thank you for being a great friend. Thank you because you never forgot. Thank you because you're such an angel. I am also deeply sorry for the bad things I've done to you, might I know of it or not. Sorry because I always forget to reply to some of your messages and won't remember it until after a month or so. Sorry if I've ever made you mad or upset. I'm sorry. I truly am.
          Sarah, you probably aren't allowed to see people who you've met on the internet (I know I am but kkk~) but I still wish the day would come that we would finally personally meet each other. I don't care if it takes three or five or ten or even fifty years, if I know I will be able to meet you then I'll wait. I know I sound like a person in love but these kinds of friendships which last for years are real treasures to me. I am not the friendly type of person and I don't get a lot of friends so I treasure each one I get. I just wanna hug you real tight and tell you a million thank-you's because I love you that much. He he~
          Well, what I really wanted to do is wish you a very Merry Christmas! I hope you and your family a great day and a greater next year! ♥ I love you. xoxo mwamwa :** Take care always okay? If you need me, just send a message. ♥

-Besh ♥

 I would've sent this through mail but lol I am totes lazy this Christmas vacation so yea. lol 

20 Kpop Questions~

1. Your favorite group(s)?

I support every group I know but here are my favorites:

Girls Generation/So Nyeo Shi Dae | Sistar | EXO | BTS

2. Your bias?

Taeyeon | Jessica | Tiffany | Sunny | Yuri | Hyoyeon | Sooyoung | Seohyun | YoonA
Bora | Hyorin | Dasom | Soyou 

Taemin | HyunA | Chanyeol | Dongwoo | Taecyeon | Jun.K | Min | Gayoon | Hyosung | Leeteuk | Siwon

it is quite acceptable to forget some okay

3. Your favorite song(s)?

snsd and sistar's song accept that

4. Do you ship? So yeah, which pairing(s)?

I know I shouldn't but I do:

YoonYul | JeTi | SunTae | BaekYeol

5. Have you ever gone to a concert?

Nope, sadly. Might be going to Dream Kpop Fantasy Concert 2 tho this 2014.

6. How long have you liked K-pop?

I tried so hard to stay away from Kpop but I've been a fan of SNSD since 2009. Kpop since 2011.

7. Favorite boyband?

EXO and BTS... sadly, lol just kidding. ♥

8. Favorite girlgroup?

SNSD and SISTAR 'til, well, forever.  ♥

9. SMtown or YG entertainment?

I'm a stan of SMEnt so SMTown.

10. How many K-pop songs do you have on your ipod/playlist?

I don't count but more or less a hundred and fifty.

11. Name 3 of your favorite songs sung by girlgroups. 

Wow, this is hard. 

Every snsd and sistar song I've heard so far are my faves okay it's hard everyone knows that.

currently my other faves are

Is It Poppin by 4Minute | Yoohoo by Secret | APink's Nonono

I love 2ne1's songs too btw.

12. Name 3 of your favorite songs sung by boybands.

what but prolly

Sorry Sorry Answer by Super Junior | I'm A Loner by CNBlue | Infinite's Destiny  

13. Are you taller or shorter than your bias?

why is this question here?

14. What's your favorite lyric?

i dont have okay

jk Gee gee gee gee baby baby baby 

15. Have you made fanart / written a fanfiction?

Nope. I suck at writing stories. I suck at drawing. You're making me sad. 

16. How much kpop merchandise do you have?

I think it should be how many but idk there's quite a lot. But I'm going to tell you that I've spent err my dad has spent more than 10000 pesos on my Kmerch. No, I'm not proud. I'm quite upset actually.

17. Do you have cons/meetings in your country, so yes, have you ever attended to one?

Yes, and yes. 

18. Eldest or maknae?

I like the eldest ones but lol maknaes are too cute not to love. They're all bias wreckers I hate them.

19. Whose birthday is close to yours?

Seohyun's. 

20. Do you watch k-drama? So yes, which one is your favorite?

No, I'm lazy.

An hour before Yeol's birthday.

Dear person I love,

11:00 pm KST

Hello hello hello hello how do you do? Hahahaha. Just kidding.

            I am writing err typing this right now because it’s only an hour, at least in KST, before your birthday my precious Yeol.

11:01 pm KST

Hello? How are you? I hope you are doing fine and are happy right now. I hope you are having a good rest as you have been very busy these past few days, weeks, months. I hope you are having fun with your members right now if you’re waiting for your special day. A lot of us are waiting for it. Some did a countdown for it.

                I am not sure of what to say but I guess I’ll just say whatever pops up in my mind.

                Yeol, I have not been a fan of your group for the longest time but know that I love everyone of you. I love your hyungs and saengs. I love you, all of you. I love you the most, though. It’s been and still is a fun journey having you as my favorite.

11:11 pm KST

                I wish for EXO to have a good life. I wish for EXO’s happiness. I hope Chanyeol will always be one of the reasons why EXO smiles.

11:12 pm KST

                I want to thank you. Thank you because you’ve made me experience new feelings. Thank you for I got to know and love EXO because of you. Thank you because your dimple is so cute. Hahaha. Thank you because, even though I have not met you before, you’re one of the reasons why I am still here, smiling and surviving every day. Thank you for making EXO members smile. Thank you for making your fans smile. Thank you for your lovely smile. Thank you for being you.

11:19 pm KST

                I hate you. I just do. I’m so ugh but I just wanted to say that. Hahahaha. I love you more though :)

11:20 pm KST

                 I wonder what you’re doing right now. Sleeping? Eating? Laughing? Singing a song? Playing the guitar? Oh, how I wish I was there by your side right now. How I wish I could greet you personally at midnight. How I wish I could see your cute face. How I wish I could make you smile. How I wish I could hand over a letter and a gift to you today.

11:24 pm KST

                Hmm…36 more minutes before your birthday…Yes, I am good at math /sort of/ because I need to.

11:25 pm KST

                Chanyeol? Is that your name?

11:26 pm KST

                I want to hug you right now. That’s all I want. But why am I wishing something that will only benefit me? It’s your birthday; you should be the one receiving. Hahahaha.

11:27 pm KST

                You know, even though I love you, I also want Dara to notice you. I don’t know what kind of love you have for her, but I hope you could interact more with each other. That would be so nice :)

11:29 pm KST

                Few more minutes ‘til your birthday; what kind of things will you be wishing for on your special day? Well, whatever they are, I hope you get them. I always do hope for your happiness. I will always do.

11:35 pm KST

                Lalalalalalala~ I hope Chanyeol would sing a song for me, too ^^

11:37 pm KST

                When Chanyeol smiles, sunshine~~ It’s true. I know other fans think like that, too. Hehehe~

11:40 pm KST

                20 more minutes; I’m here, patiently waiting for your special day. How old are you going to be tomorrow? Hahahaha. You’re getting older, when can I catch up to you?

11:42 pm KST

                Sometimes, I wish I was in South Korea. I want to see your face. Go to places you’ve gone to. See what things you buy. Look at you wherever you are. I might sound like a stalker, but I just want to see you.

11:45 pm KST

                Park Chanyeol! Do you know how much it hurts to love someone? Do you know how much it hurts that that someone is far away? Do you know how much it hurts to love someone who you have never seen before? Do you know how much it hurts to love someone who doesn’t even know you exist? I want you to know. I want you to know because that’s how I feel.

11:50 pm KST

                11 more minutes… I am getting so excited. I’m sure most of your fans are!

                Chanyeol oppa, I’m really going to write everything I want to write right now.

12:00 pm KST

Happy Birthday Park Chanyeol!!!