If my mom scolds me later, I'm gonna scream.

So, yesterday (it's already 1:48 am here) my cousin and her mom were here because her mom was a 'watcher' whatever they call it together with my mom and they had to watch voters and stuff. And my little cousin was left here. Her mom hasn't picked her up and since my cousin's still a small girl, she has to sleep earlier and she actually has to sleep, I lent her my bed. I LENT HER MY BED. It's actually quite a miracle I did that, I wouldn't even let my mom sleep there. But the kind-hearted person I am, that was a joke tho, I lent her my bed. I'm quite regretting it, but yeah, I have nowhere to sleep now. I have to not sleep. I-I can't take it anymore. ; A ; Someone help me ; A ;

A letter to my dreams.

Dear dreams I dream for the future,

I really hope you would all come true. I will do EVERYTHING for you to become true. I always hope for the better and I think you're the better. I want to fulfill every single one of my dreams because I know that not only I would be happy but my family, too. I know someday that the things I will do someday will make them proud of me and my achievements. But right nao, all I can do now is study and do my best. I will do that until every one of you will be fulfilled. I promise ♥

-Besh


Dear dreams I dream at night,

You know, no matter how scary or lovely you all are, I will always love every bit of you. Why? Because I know that I am not afraid to face reality after I see you. Of course, dreams that are lovely always will be the best, but you're also the reason why I get up and hope for a better sleep every night. Thank you for making everything else better. I love you my sweet illusions ♥

-Besh

A letter to my sibling

Dear sisturr,

You know, we almost always fight about every little thing, unless of course if it's about animu, but you know what? I will always love you. You and our brother, I will always love. You might not be the most perfect siblings but I will love you. Sisturr, thanks always for being there to make me laugh and being there when I make fun of something. A little bit of you makes everything funnier. Thanks to everything you've done for and to me. Thanks for always giving me what I want like you're my parent. lol. Sorry if I am not the best sister in the world, but know that I will be one of the good ones, tho not always. Haha. I don't have a lot to say but sorry and thank you. I love love love you so much :*

-Besh

A letter to my parents.

To my mama and papa,

First of all, thank you so much for all the love and support you've given me and my siblings. Thank you for all the things you give to me. Thank you for always being for us whenever we need you. Thank you because my siblings and I have had a wonderful time in this small world. Thank you for everything. Ma and Pa, I'm really sorry for all the bad things I've done before and I'm doing now. Sorry because I didn't listen. Sorry because I talked back. I'm a really lonely person inside and little things make me mad most of the time, so I'm sorry. But I want you to know that I love you both so much, tho I do not show it often. I don't have a lot to say, but thank you and I'm sorry and I love you so much

-Besh

A letter to my crush.

Dear crush,

You know, I've always liked you. But you are a really close friend. And it's only after you telling me you liked me that I admitted that to myself. I like you a lot. You were always there for me when I needed you. You were always there when I had a problem. You were always there whenever I was happy, sad, angry and every emotion I felt. I didn't want to end our friendship but I think, it's about time we did that. I just can't take anymore of the pain I get when I couldn't do anything with you. We both know I don't want a boy friend and I don't want commitment but the pain of not knowing you're mine kills me. I've never been like this, getting jealous, feeling this much pain. 'Why did it have to be you', I ask myself every so often. You know, it hurts a lot when I think about how you could flirt with other girls, be sweet to them whenever you want because you're not mine, I hate that the most. If we never liked each other, we would have been closer to each other, we would've been better friends. We would've shared laughs and tears together. We would've understood each other so well. But no, I had to ask you THAT one question and you had to answer it with regret. I was the one who's wrong for asking that, I know. I know I shouldn't have, but I am one hell of a curious cat and I really had to ask why did you tell me those pick-up lines, why did you do those cute, sweet, little things every time we talked. I wasn't used to that so I had to ask. Anyway, thank you for everything, thank you for your time, thank you for advice, thank you for your sweet thoughts, thank you, just thank you. And I'm sorry I wouldn't talk to you anymore, I feel like you don't want to either so I don't. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you, sorry for all the bad things I told you, I'm really sorry. But now I guess I'll have to say good bye. I hope you'd find the right girl for you, as I lay around here staring at my computer looking at my husbandos. Good luck in college and I hope we'd meet again someday. Good Bye and Good Luck.

-Besh